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Never Ever....

Growing up I never thought or imagined of being married. So the thought of being married and having a child is still sometimes unreal. 

But this life lately has been full of things that have happened that I thought would Never Ever happen.

Over the past year and a half we moved 5 times. Yes you read correctly..5 times. From apartment to apartment to hotel to relatives to friends to "a home" and back to hotel all in the same continent-country-state(LAME). 

I worked as a caregiver and loved it. Which was a big shocker to myself and everyone else thought I was crazy. "How could you wipe grown old people's asses?" is what I got a lot.  But helping these people with things they could no longer do and seeing the progression of dementia and alzheimer's was truly amazing and deeply sad. But my favorite thing was the stories of things and moments they remembered. Even watching the moment in play all over again sometimes. Getting to know things about them that families might not even know since their past and present sometimes run parallel to them. I worked 24/7 as a caregiver for the residents and of course my own family. I was blessed that Princess was able to go to work with me also.

I also found something that felt safe and in return I lost control without even seeing it happen till too late. Hurt and lost people that I love dearly; I took responsibility and will forever feel the weight of the consequences. 

Now to the signs of- weight lost, nausea, unbalanced, fatigue, and no period.  I even joked saying "I bet I'm pregnant lol". The joke was a reality. So now I am about 18 weeks pregnant and going through a whirlwind of emotions, hormones( are those considered the same?) and physical things that come from with being pregnant and a not so ideal life situation. 

I never thought I would have a child and now I will be a mother of TWO. But things happen for a reason and I love being a mother.

So come follow the journey of the barefoot and pregnant crazy lady and her wild silly Princess to see what will happen next.

Relationships

I have many relationships. As do we all. I am daughter, a sister, granddaughter, cousin, wife, friend, daughter in law, and most importantly in my opinion a mother.

But within all these there are great moments and some not so great moments.

I have realized through all my years of life (feels like 50) that there will be people that will be the same person no matter what. No matter how much time is between the times you see each other or talk. And there will be people that you thought would be ones you could always depend on and it turns out they don't care as much for you as you do them and you can see them distancing themselves.

What hurts me and what has me typing this is the people we feel are important to be in our children's lives hurt and disrespect them when the child can't defend themselves. You try to give them numerous chances to be the great person you know them to be. Yet they digress more. Now I have to abandon all hope for them and just wish it won't be for forever. But this is what must be done because our children come first.

🎄 🙏 Christmas!!

This Christmas is maybe a new tradition and well at least something new. And I love change!!
This year hubby's work schedule conflicts with us going to our usual family spot. So we are going to have our own Christmas at home just us and I'm actually excited.